Owww...my head =(

I hate headaches...

I've had one every day for....I can't even remember now...but I've scheduled to see my primary care doctor so hopefully it'll work out...if not, there's always asprin. =)

In news that matters, Mitt Romney has pulled out of the presidential race. His statement was along the lines of: If I were to keep campaigning, the Democrats would win. I'm probably misinterpreted that and paraphrased it badly but my head hurts.

Even if I was eighteen, I don't think I would have voted for him anyway. I mean, I have nothing personal. We're both from Boston and all, but honestly, I have no 'someth-'ing idea what he stands for anymore. I'm scared to see how many times he would change his ideas. Well all I can say is good luck to whoever does end up winning.

Now to those in Tennessee, my heart goes out to all of you, if you were affected in anyway, I hope you get some relief. For those who don't know, tornado storms ripped through the mid South killing around fifty people and injuring hundreds. I haven't watched the news since yesterday, so my numbers may be outdated. Obvoiusly that doesn't account for the financial, and not to mention emotional losses out there. My thoughts and prayers are with you all.

Well, I distracted myself enough. I'll go to sleep now to rest my head.

Poem

I've been having a lot of bad days lately, so to let out the emotion, I've been writing poems. They don't all necessarily relate to what I've been going through, but the freedom of writing was good enough. I still don't feel completely better, considering today was the worst day, so I still have a lot of writing to do. I just wanted to write one now, for the sake of it.

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"Illness"

It lives inside of me

encompassing my inside

wraps around my stomach

and pushes until it frees.

It travels inside of me

through my bloodstream

right to my heart.

A direct hit

It embeds itself in me

entering my ear

toying with my mind

torturing me inside.

The fear

the betrayal

the whispers...

I have no idea

what this is

But I know

what it feels like.

It's like a black hole

sucking everything into oblivion.

It's like a stab wound

penetrating so deep.

It's like a heavy weight

holding me down and captive.

It is always in me

always around me

always hurting me.

There is no cure

that I know of.

There is no treatment

I can speak of.

I live with it

inside me,

secretly

and always.

This is my sickness,

never leaving me.

My chronic disease.

My illness.