Poem

I've been having a lot of bad days lately, so to let out the emotion, I've been writing poems. They don't all necessarily relate to what I've been going through, but the freedom of writing was good enough. I still don't feel completely better, considering today was the worst day, so I still have a lot of writing to do. I just wanted to write one now, for the sake of it.

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"Illness"

It lives inside of me

encompassing my inside

wraps around my stomach

and pushes until it frees.

It travels inside of me

through my bloodstream

right to my heart.

A direct hit

It embeds itself in me

entering my ear

toying with my mind

torturing me inside.

The fear

the betrayal

the whispers...

I have no idea

what this is

But I know

what it feels like.

It's like a black hole

sucking everything into oblivion.

It's like a stab wound

penetrating so deep.

It's like a heavy weight

holding me down and captive.

It is always in me

always around me

always hurting me.

There is no cure

that I know of.

There is no treatment

I can speak of.

I live with it

inside me,

secretly

and always.

This is my sickness,

never leaving me.

My chronic disease.

My illness.